Emphatic like me? Can you feel all those raw emotions swirling around you and just don't know what to do with them? It can be overwhelming on the best of days.
On the good days, I can ground myself and be conscious enough to pose the questions "are these my feelings or am I sensing someone else?" "what am I going to do about it?" "Maybe they just need a hug? or do I need a hug?"
They say it's a blessing and a curse to feel so much.
I agree. It's great when happiness, fulfillment, peace and gratitude come around to visit, but what of all those other emotions, like jealousy, envy, anger and sadness? And what do we do with them when there's this other little voice inside saying, "you shouldn't feel that way, you're spiritual and shit. You can see the bigger picture, so this shouldn't bother you." But you still feel those emotions anyway. So maybe instead we try to stuff those feelings really deep inside and pull a mask over them, which, in my case, usually expresses itself later as sarcasm.
But then incomes the spiritual shit again.
The other voice inside starts speaking up.
"Listen Lori, from a grander perspective, we are both the dark and the light. We have both good and bad feelings. It's the yin/yang concept. You know all about that. You can't know one side without the other. Both are valid and help us understand the bigger picture of existence."
Great, thanks. But when we're thick in the mud of depression or stress it can be torturous to hear those words. So, how do we move through those emotions when they come up?
Someone told me the other day that they wished they could just get rid of jealousy and envy. That day I was feeling a little more grounded and optimistic so I spouted my wise owl comment and suggested that "jealousy and envy are there to point out what we wish we could have or be, but for whatever reason don't believe we can. Envy is just there to point out what you want. It just gets a little muddled in the translation."
A week later, I got a decent dose of both jealousy and envy over something that I knew was my own issue and not just some empathetic ripple I was feeling from someone else, so I had to chew on my words. I hate that, so I wrote a blog about it in the hopes to transform what I'm working through in myself.
The spiritualists say you should face your fears and demons.
Sometimes I wish I could just turn into a dragon and burn the whole god damn thing to the ground. It feels satisfying to say that but the end result? Alone again and that's not the point of a human existence. So, I sat there in my discomfort and let myself go through the shadow realms of my jealousy.
My brain likes to review scenarios a "few" dozen times before it can move on to actually asking the important questions. Usually I start from the perspective of being the victim. Then after spinning on that treadmill a while another voice appears and begins helping me along...
"So, you're upset? Well, what is it that they have that you want? Why does it anger you that he/she has it and you don't? Why don't you feel like you can have that too? What's stopping you from achieving what they have? Do you really want what they have? Or are you just dissatisfied about an aspect of your own life and this is a sign to start doing what you want?"
Once I started down the trail of unraveling my feelings and beliefs, slowly but surely a fog began to lift and I began to see more clearly what stories I'd been telling myself and what I really wanted. This scenario I was jealous of was reflecting for me, like a mirror, my own betrayal of what I wanted and what blockages were there that still needed to be healed.
Then comes the hardest part.
What am I going to do about it?
Since I already know my dragon scenario won't end well, I have to brave the emotional upheaval I'm feeling inside, and embrace the feelings of my vulnerability aka "I hate this aspect of myself" and in my particular case, I had to take a deep breath, say I'm worth it and speak my truth with the best of my current outlook.
"I'm jealous of the relationship you have with that person, it hurts me that you two don't see how it affects me. I feel like I can't have what you have." And then I waited for Pandora's box to open and the world to tell me I'm awful for feeling that way.
Turns out, not everyone will understand. They're on their own journey and my feelings are standing in the way of what they want. So I turned into a dragon and burnt the whole place to the ground. Just kidding... I can't really turn into a dragon.
We can't get rid of those darker emotions, and being spiritual doesn't mean they suddenly all disappear because we have a different perspective. Instead we can try to be more graceful in understanding what these emotions are trying to tell us.
I think the most important thing I've learnt when dealing with these types of dark feelings is to trust that there is a message in it for me. But in order to get to the truth of that message, I had to engage with the feeling, to summon the courage to dig deeper into what that emotion was telling me, instead of hiding it, masking it or stuffing it down only to re-emerge with the fire of a dragon.
Our response to these feelings are what create the change we're really looking for in our lives.
Malicious envy is still the dragon spitting it's fire at whatever seems unfair. Though it might feel empowering, we're really just trying to burn them to bring them to the level we're at, which ain't happy. Benign envy, however, will turn your dragon into a guide and help you move mountains in order to achieve what you once believed you couldn't. We can use that type of envy to motivate ourselves to climb higher.
Above all, don't be too hard on yourself. Being spiritual doesn't mean better, it simply means you've chosen to look at life from a perspective that will hopefully help you deal with problems as they arise. Are you willing to do the hard work when it shows up? It's not all beaches and butterflies once you get that big spiritual "ahhhhh ha" moment. The unlayering of our perspectives can be a real bitch. And our outlook is only as great as our capacity to move out of our beliefs and push, push push through that mud and up the mountain.
Surround yourself with people who can listen to you and want what's best, even if it means holding you accountable. Find your sounding boards, those who can help you look at your life as authentically and honestly as possible. We all need a little help decoding and translating this big Story Book we call Life.
And if all else fails... then just burn it to the ground and start over.
The lady stood above the world and looked out at the history of mankind.
The earth was splattered red with blood that had been spilled over Man's desire for power. In their freedom, man turned on one another and began taking control over others freedoms. Fear began to take hold of peoples hearts and darkness flooded over the lands.
Different types of leaders emerged and began molding the people into their version of what they believe the World could look like. The Lady saw masses of people marching behind their rulers, believing with full hearts that their cause & belief was righteous.
The lady watched as sheep followed the Wolves to battle, only to be devoured and their bodies used to build Empires. And as the world revolved upon its axis, person after person took their turn leading the masses and spreading their perspectives across the earth.
Saddened the Lady stepped up to the Creator.
“Mother, Let it be my turn to lead the people of earth and I will show them how to live in harmony with your abundance.”
The creator smiled upon the Lady and replied.
“Everyone of those leaders you see came to me, just as you have, and said the same thing.”
The creator brought forth Hilter who stood next to Alexander the Great, Napoleon, Genghis khan and Joan of Arc. Then Jesus, Buddha, and Nelson Mandela stepped forward and ALL stood before the Creator in equality.
“What makes you think you will be any different than each of these beings who have taken their turn to lead the children of earth?”
Shocked the Lady stood back.
“Your intentions may be pure, but the illusions of earth can turn anyone into something that doesn’t necessarily represent the Truth of who you are and why I have created you.”
The creator showed a vision of the Earth changing different shades of blue as the Lady took her place ruling the people.
"Blue is but one color of the Rainbow. It alone does not represent the whole spectrum of colors that I have created for the Earth.
“If you wish to help mankind, then remind each and every person of their freedom.
Teach them of their sovereignty and that I have gifted each and every one of you with divine right to choose freely for yourself. You are free to choose whether you follow a leader, become a leader or sacrifice your life to a belief or a cause. I have made the earth bountiful and with enough space for all to live freely and by their own choices. "
The Lady nodded in understanding.
“Then I shall lead by example.”
The Creator smiled.
“Then I shall gift you with the wisdom to see through the shadow lands of illusion and the patience to withstand the length of time it will take to free every person from their own treachery.”
Out of the darkness an owl appeared to the Lady. It’s eyes peered into hers and she saw the whole Universe within her heart.
And so, together they began a long journey on earth. To teach the people of their sovereignty and how to release themselves from the chains of their own beliefs.
Written by Lori Fast
Stay tuned for more Adventures of Lady Lorelie...
Once upon a time, in the winter wonderland of Winnipeg, there lived a beautiful women. She loved the earth so dearly that she wished to offer the planet a gift. She folded her hands in prayer and smiled.
"Love and Harmony" she whispered.
The wind heard her prayer and set forth to every corner of the earth to spread her wish.
And when the Lady Lorelie saw her friend, she smiled for she had heard the whispers of the wind and saw the beauty of her friends spirit.
"Come" the lady said "let me give you wings and crown your head, for your love is pure like the white of snow and your prayer like a ribbon that floats through the land."
May all who see you be blessed by your smile.
Lady Lorelie empowers people through Art. Her inspiration and visions come from spirit, who uses the art of henna to empower people and reconnect them with their own spirit. If you would like to collaborate or book your own inspirational photoshoot please contact me
"She sits Gracefully in the midst of Chaos, a silhouette of Peace in the center of a Swirling city. A vision of Love against a skyline of twinkling lights. How wonderful it is, to see my vision come to life." - Lady Lorelie
This is a photo diary of a henna session and photoshoot I did with Savannah Joy Yoga
, and Izabela Rachwal
. The images here showcase the creative process of getting a henna tattoo. My inspiration for this henna session came when I began drawing and tuning into deities. I stumbled upon a beautiful image of Buddha, drawn by the talented Hettie Baker
. Inspiration often comes from others and her unique drawing inspired me to bring Buddha to life in my own unique fashion. My next question, as always, was who will work with me to create this vision? Lucky for me, Spirit always answers my call and in this case, led me to Savannah, who modelled my vision with Joy and grace, and in turn brought with her Izabela Rachwal, who stepped in unexpectedly with her camera and visual expertise to capture the experience.
Collaborating together with these ladies was an extraordinary experience. You know that feeling you get when you're doing exactly what you love and life is fully supporting you? This is exactly how I felt. I knew I was in the middle of creating magic, I was doing what my spirit came here to do. Create, Collaborate and Support one another in bringing out our fullest, brightest potential. Transforming people and decorating them with art is so wonderful, and I feel blessed to have finally stepped into my Dharma, my purpose and into my potential.
Using Henna as a tool for this practice is so unique as henna is only temporary but has the power change a persons life and support them on their own journey. A henna session ultimately becomes a meditation as the process literally transforms the body physically, mentally and emotionally. As I bring a vision to life, the person receiving the henna gets to simply rest, relax and let the experience transform them. Since the henna plant is a medicine of it's own rite, it leaves people feeling abundant, beautiful, confident and happy. For me it always begins with finding the right inspiration for that person. A picture, an image or a sensation can be that inspiration and when that feeling stirs inside of me and a vision comes to me, I know I'm on the creative journey with Universal Spirit to bring that vision to life and transform that person.
From make believe to real life... this is the creative journey.
If you'd like to join the journey, please get in touch, I'd love to collaborate.
With love and Light,
A few years ago, I had a vision of myself floating through space. It was as though my spirit were sitting inside an Orb that over looked the galaxy. As I sat in my bubble, I doodled. I drew all over the entire inside of my bubble, so that it was completely covered in patterns of my art. My light would beam through the bubble, casting spirals of my art and patterns out into space. And all around me I felt the presence of Deities. Sitting in their own bubbles, they had come to watch the display. As I beamed my light out to planet Earth, they watched the patterns spiral down and wrap around the planet, decorating earth with beautiful patterns and designs.
"I'm going to make everything around me beautiful - that will be my life" - Elsie de Wolfe
It's taken me some time to fully understand this vision. Now, as I begin to draw these Deities and ground them to Earth, I see how they wish to work with me. I can see now that they follow me because they wish to touch others through this artistic tool. There are those on this earth they wish to help. Their wish is to connect with us, to help our human experience and offer their gifts.
Using henna is such a beautiful way honor their spirit and bring them into our lives. Henna is a beautiful plant medicine. Not only has it been used for eons, dating back to a time long before Cleopatra, henna actually protects your skin like a glove, or a shield and since it is only temporary it allow us the fluidity of change.
By using skin as the canvas for art we are actually allowing our bodies to tune into the energy of the art. In this same way, when I create a design with a Deity, I am in a way, imprinting the energy and blessings of these Deities onto the body I'm working with. In doing so you are accepting their presence and bringing their help into your life.
Here is Lakshmi, the Goddess of Abundance, prosperity, wealth and Beauty. Seated on a Lotus flower, she holds two lotus flowers. One in each hand, this flower represents beauty, fertility and purity.
Lakshmi is the embodiment of affluence, abundance and auspiciousness. She is the active energy force that brings abundance, prosperity, beauty and good luck to both the physical and spiritual realms. As the goddess of fortune, she bestows power, pleasure and prosperity on those who deserve her grace. To realize her, one must respect the laws of life and appreciate the wonders of existence.
Need a little Lakshmi in your life? Evoke this deity into your life with a henna tattoo session. Book an appointment and I'll tell you more about this lovely goddess while you lay back and let the art and magic unfold.
Cheers to you friends,
hope to be tattooing you next
"Money won't create success, the freedom to make it will." - Nelson Mandela.
My friend asked me to draw this concept for him when he managed to get out of debt. A feeling I think most of us know...
Do you know the feeling of being bound to money? I certainly do...
Are your ideas of success and happiness linked to money?
Mandela understood freedom better than most, though he speaks here of Apartheid. I wonder sometimes about our own freedom. We have more freedom now than ever, and yet our concepts of success are linked to financial growth and this consumption. This money train feels a lot like an endless Fibonacci code... more, More, MORE
It is not money in itself that creates success, it is our determination, our selfworth and our will to create opportunities that build success. What then are we truly valuing?
I picked the image of the "power hand" tightly gripping the chain as it is a symbol groups have used all over the world to come together, rise up and break free of oppression. The symbol of the Harpy eagle represents vision, strength and endurance. When these two forces come together, surely we can break the chains that bind us to beliefs that no longer serve the whole.